The Beauty of Mistakes

Mistakes

As I slowly transition out of my teenage years, its amazing to look how far I’ve come and how much progression and growth I have managed to achieve especially lately.

Nothing has really been easy, teenage years aren’t. We all struggle with different obstacles as we take our own unique path interacting with different individuals along the way.

Someone who has contributed immense growth through indirect actions and the situations in which I have had to share a large portion of my teenage years around, through both positive and negative situations, has essentially changed my life. 

Growing up, I was consumed in the infatuation of young teenage love, with very little to no focus on my long-term future and career goals. Instead, I had accepted transgressions in which in any other position I would not of.

The truth being that I could not bring myself to convict such a difficult choice so I choose the hardest possible route. Fast forward to my current position, I had let my feelings and my desires destroy me by someone who lacked proper etiquette or respect for another human beings emotional state. Playing a dance all too familiar to those who can relate, its difficult to rid someone you had affection for.

But the truth was my issues were then highlighted to me through my own personal crusade to find myself, that I found someone I could never of found if I had not chosen to take such a path.

I made it a mission in my life to grow and to give back to society. To love with everything of me, to stay loyal and to stay committed to everything that I would embark on.

The blind mistakes in which I’ve made, allowed me to grow rapidly, at this moment, a few months after another lesson, I grew to feel passion, to appreciate creativity, to constantly build on my own personal issues to become a better person for the world.

I am far from perfect, but I try my best to do what’s right, for my own actions reflect my soul and the actions of others should not impact on how I conduct myself.

I let people into my life that have let me down, who have torn me down, people who would change up for their own benefit.

I’ve been blatantly lied to, had decisions made for me for what was “best” for me, trampled over because of my own good will but the thing is, I would never regret a single moment. For who I am today could never be greater thanks to everyone and by me making the mistakes I’ve made.

I look forward to 2015 with immense passion knowing what I am going to do and how I hope to impact on individuals, simply because the greatest love in which one could possess is the one where its selfless and unconditional.

Coming to peace with each stepping stone that has destroyed me emotionally has built the foundation for what I believe is a promising future.

I have turned every single mistake into a lesson, even when it may be difficult, its always possible. I lost my grandpa 8 days after I turned 18, in which on 2 occasions that lead up to his passing, I choose different plans, simply because I thought I could afford to make such a choice. It turned out to be a decision that I would later regret but nevertheless, I turned it into a lesson.

I gave away my strength shortly after, exploited by my only weakness. Turning into a battle that I never thought I needed, but it turns out, that battle was the greatest battle I ever had to fight.  The battles that evoke emotion allow individuals such as myself, to learn, grow, expand thought processes, knowledge and give us the tools to go beyond the walls in which society has confined us in.

This is a complex thought, which most of my thoughts tend to be. But its in terms of overall potential in what I am able to achieve. I could not fear failure if I tried. It was a blessing, to go after what I want and what I believe would benefit me greatly, for what could you regret if you didn’t?

We are so afraid of failure that we tend to fail at success, for we wish not to start based on the fears of what if it doesn’t work out, what if I get hurt or what if we can’t make it work?

The truth is, it will never work out if you do not try, you will be regretful for the rest of your life for not taking chances and protecting your own emotions.

The key to life is to never concede to our fears, to love without counting the cost, to never ever give up regardless of the results,  to never let the actions of others affect who we are as a person and to continually aim for growth every single day.

My biggest mistakes were never  truly mistakes but my greatest lessons.  Life is our greatest teacher, but we must strive to find these lessons. Sometimes the answers are hidden in plain sight and others may take weeks, months or even years to find. Do not be discouraged by the time it takes to reach the end.. It may be right around the corner.

I forgive everyone for they do not know what they are doing, I apologize to those who I have affected negatively in any way and I wish to repair any damage I may of left you with.

I hate blogging personal issues, however, this is not an issue, it is simply a lesson.

I only wish the best for people past, present and future. Stranger, lover or friend.

I could never wish negativity on another despite  any difficult situations we may of gone through. I tend to make my life harder than what is necessary but hey, if  I wasn’t so complicated, I could never be who I am..

I do not wish to throw anyone under the bus for my experiences, but I do wish to thank each and everyone who has been a part of my life and the influences I have received from individuals who are close to me and to those who I have not personally met.

Here’s to future mistakes may they teach me great lessons.

I’m always willing to make one, for it allows me to get one step closer to the right formula for success.

No  regrets. 

P.S. If you wish to play games, just know what you're willing to lose. 

For I might play games, and play by the rules, but the moment I break the rules.

You lose.