Growing Pains

Not an insightful post but a personal yet cryptic post that touches on a crazy journey and the next chapter to come.

Growing up at times can be tricky, when you’re going through puberty, you think that girls are important to your life. But as you grow up and the difficulties of getting through school, having fake friends, heartbreak,  bouncing around through the ups and downs in life, there comes a time where you begin to really grow up and mature.

You no longer focus on girls, you got real goals now, you got goals for your future. 

You no longer let things get you down, you let negative situations spur you onto bigger and better things rather than feeling sorry for yourself.

It becomes motivation.

Your past no longer defines you, you let it be the beginning of something new.

See, to paint a clear picture, for the past 4 years it has been a real rollercoaster with certain people. People coming and going when they please and being misunderstood because you analyze everything, you think too much and people make assumptions based on limited facts.

You get to a point where you have people around you but no help.. Because you can help yourself and its in that solitary moments in life you begin to explore your deep thoughts and feelings, you begin to learn knowledge that can only be found through self exploration.

I went through deep emotional turmoil but it was through this that I found myself. I found everything from who I really was to my sole purpose in life. Something in which I couldn’t of found 4 years ago.

Pain was my greatest teacher it forced me to grow, to learn, to mature, to create.

I found strength where I once saw pain, I found happiness where I once saw sadness, I found beauty where I once saw destruction.

It was the greatest discovery of my life and it’s through these “growing pains” that I’ve found my potential. Its through this discovery that I want to teach and inspire others, to motivate them and turn rain into rainbows.

So within the next few months, I will share my journey as I begin the hard road into what I hope to be a successful campaign through creating a vlog, more social media presence and quotes that reflect my thoughts and feelings as well as a self published book in perhaps the not so distant future.  Also, will be offering motivational speaking and sessions for individuals or groups next year to help push others into their own greatness through unlocking their potential.

I have a lot planned for the next couple months as I look to get my foot in the world of business and motivational speaking. But in order to execute any plan, I have to put in the hard yards and not expect things to fall in my lap… Lets just say, the growing pains are over. My growth has hit its limits, its now time to take on a real challenge and see where it leads me to.

But one thing is for sure, I can fail one million times but rest assure I will get up a million and one. Don’t ever count me out and no matter how hard it will be.. I’ve never seen a mountain I couldn’t climb.

The transition into this period, which has been the best part of 5 months, has allowed me to really find the direction that I wish to head in. I have had to make hard decisions which are not personal but are necessary in order to head in the right direction.

Positive vibes and people who can help my growth are what I need right now, people who can help me create and build ideas not people who look to destroy my confidence or my dreams.. I don’t need y’all.

Its amazing how much you can grow if you just focus on watering your seed rather than acting out and being so negative.. The person I was 4 years ago is a stranger, the person I was last year wouldn't of believed that this is where I would end up, the person I was a few months ago wouldn't believe that i'd end up here.. Head down and focus on you. If you want to grow, you have to focus on numero uno. 

On a personal end note; sometimes what we really want is consumed in things that we cannot control, but sooner or later, you hope that everything works out even though you face another mountain.. You must be willing to climb even without strength for he who gives up, only achieves failure. To the ends of the world, I shall walk. To the depths of the sea, I shall swim. Fear will never keep me away from the dangers of the climb, it only makes my heart race with a body full of adrenaline. I can not lose. For the only loss one shall endure is the loss of a life chasing what we had wished all along for..

Everything I am has made me everything I’m not.. Different from the rest but all the same, we remain. Only time shall reveal the true agenda of the Lord. But, trust me, I only have time to play one game.. that’s the game of life. Or perhaps I should say Monopoly..  HA!